The other day I wrote a post about considering leaving the church. I just wanted to piggy back off of particular post and give my readers part two. (This will bless your life.)
The entire month of July I’ve be contemplating on leaving the “Church life.” Yes, the body of Christ period. I was not going to become an Atheist but, I did not want to be around church people period. I wanted to go off and live my life and only have a personal relationship with the Lord without fellowshipping. I wanted to just go back to my normal patterns and just lay in bed on Sundays and roll into church when I felt like it. I then started engaging into old habits. I found myself back sliding to the old woman I use to be. I became vain, my thinking was altered and I found myself in a frenzy. So, I had to quickly find myself a quick fix and go to someone’s church. So, I visited a few churches but, I felt incomplete. I felt like I was missing something out of my life. I felt a bit lost and out of place. So, the only thing I could do is pray to God and ask for his direction.
I poured out to God saying, ” Lord, Where do I go from here. I don’t have a church home. Someone betrayed me deeply from my church. I cant go back. Lord, rumors were told about me some facts some fictional. Lord, there is no way I’m showing my face there. Plus, the last time I was there some folks were giving me the side eye. They looked at me like I did not belong there. Besides Lord I’ve heard too many rumors about my church. Lord, on top of that one of the mothers of the Church is always talk about my clothes under her breath to her little friends lol. Lord, I cant go back. I know its time for me to leave and live my life. Not to mention my church is on the other side of town and there is a church up the street! Lord why do you have me here?”
God placed this on my heart ” Beloved you have a church home. And I never told you to leave. You stepped out of my will and reacted off of your emotions. You’ve caused this confusion to come upon yourself. You wanted to run away because of what others are saying. You took matters into your own hands once again. You and I both know what happened and I’ve forgiven you. Its time to move on and sin no more. This situation will make sense later in your life. You all have sinned and I love you all . Pick your self up and complete the assignments that I have given you. Don’t worry about what people say about the Church I placed you at. I placed you there for a reason and my reasons only. You need to stay focused on my teachings and filter out the negativity. Remember how far I’ve brought you. Remember were you used to be.”
That was a lot to intake but, I did just what the Lord placed on my heart to do. At first I was nervous and I felt naked I felt like everyone knew my business (both fictional and truth.) But I did not care what anyone was thinking. I just wanted to be obedient to the Lord. I reflected back on my past and remember all of the trials that God brought me through. I thought about how faithful God has been to me during my lowest moments. I thought about the other people in my life who came against me. From that point on those thoughts went away. I closed my eyes and begin to worship God in sprit and in truth. I focused on the Word of God and enjoyed service.
I felt good knowing that I’ve finally past the test of running away. I dealt with my problems and I handled my situation like a woman with class. It was challenging but, I can now move forward with my life.
I encourage you to deal with your issues. Face your fears. And never let anyone or anything run you away from a place or thing that you love. Running away from your problems creates hidden pain.
Please understand that no one has a perfect past. Everyone has some type of Skelton in there closet. Hold your head up high, keep smiling, stay positive, and carry yourself with GRACE!
Love ya in Jesus name!
Saddity Living 