Don’t Depreciate Your Self Value

I don’t understand people. We are brilliant creatures yet wired. Why do both men and woman work so hard investing in theirselves just to get with a person who will depreciate their value. This is beyond my understanding. We take out student loans to invest in our education in hopes of a promising future. We establish a relationship with our hevenly and become good samaritans. We begin to love ourselves and work our flaws. We go far as eating healthy getting toned, setting and accomplishing goals, or simply being happy. Than out of no where we get with an individual who depriates our value. A person who is not being the best person they can be. A person who does not value education or career. A person who offers little or nothing in a relationship. A person who lacks self drive and self knowledge. A person who does not care about working on their flaws.  We get these people and our lives can be completely ruined. One would find out everything they once worked hard for has gone down the drain. I’ve been here before and I losted myself and suffered. I don’t want you to go through that. Don’t settle for a person because you are afraid to be by yourself. Don’t think that you have to settle because, every good man or woman is taking. (The devil is a liar) you better love yourself enough not to settle. You better have enough common scense to stay in the will God and to keep the faith. Always, remember you invest too much in yourself just to settle, for an individual who will depreciate your value. If you’re a hard worker than partner with another hard worker. God bless. And love yourself! The picture above is me, I’ve worked on myself and out. It took hard work and the grace of God for me to find my value. Therefore, I want allow anyone to depreciate my value.

I was about to throw the towel in .But the Spirit of the Living God came flooding in

To God be all the Glory! Giving thanks to the most high God for he is worthy to praise. Excuse my praise I just cant help myself! Today, I was tired I was frustrated, and was tired of dealing with the Dept of Edu. I thought to myself that I,wanted to throw the towel in. I said to myself I’m not built for stress and havoc. My hands are already full being a full
time mom, worker, active church member. I was tired of fighting this battle garnishments, no child support, dealing with hypocrisy, being angry with the lack of involvement with certain relatives in my family. I said God I’m tired. Anyhow, I called the Dept of Edu, I was speaking to someone who appeared to be non helpful. So, I gave her the death ear and told her thank and goodbye. I drove home because, of the feeling I had inside. I was about to make poor decisions, than I said no way! I than was about to engage in an unGodly act than I said let me pray. Furthermore, here’s what I prayed. (God send me a person who can help me with my garnishment, a person who will understand my situation etc) So, I called the department of Education again. To my surprise I spoke with the same lady. She stated oh, I remember you. And I said yes this is me but, you don’t have help if you dont want to! Long story short I explained my bills, financial status, and everything in my life. She said we should not be garnishing you!!!! I said yes ma am. Than out of no where tears began to flow from my eyes all my struggles flashed before me. She stated I’ll have the garnishments stopped immediately!!! I broke down I cryed so hard for like ten minutes. I was praising God! I was not expecting that at all. That was a cry out to God!!! I’m still cruing typing this post (excuse my typos) Flash forward on, yesterday my spirit was telling me to pray in the Holy Ghost while driving to work. So, I did an all along I was thinking I was preparing for.something bad to happen but its now apparent that my spirit was having warfare for this garnishm situation and other things in my life. Understand that has all power, don’t give up

The child I wanted to abort, But God!

Today my son son graduated I’m was so happy ya’ll. My baby had the welcome speech, he brought the crowd in I was pleased the whole while.  I was one proud mother with tears in my eyes the entire time. It really was a blessing. I watched my son grow from baby, to toddler, and now to big boy. Anyhow, the whole time I was there I was thanking God for not allowing me to abort him when I was an 16 year teenager. I was so afraid of what some of my family members may think. I did not want to be a single mommy nor was I really ready to embrace mother-hood. I was a child myself.Plus I knew my aunts were going to think I was a failure. Being that my Conservative family faithfully promoted safe sex, education, breaking generational curses. All those things I failed at, I knew I was an embarrassment to my family. Lord  knows I did not want to face them. Long story short my family found out there was tears, discussions, than came my baby boy. 

Now listen to me before my entire family found out. I was trying to get an abortion. I was asking everyone who was years of my senior if they could take me to have this procedure done. Everyone declined! After months of hiding my blessing I finally told my dad girlfriend, she got me a test and of course it came back positive. My daddy was furious, he was beyond pissed.Once he calmed down we have the daddy-daughter talked. That went well and I asked my dad if I could have an abortion,his response was.

I cant do this baby, I don’t want any blood on my hands. You did what you had to do to make the baby, now you have to deal with it. You will finish school and raise your child.

Low and behold I marched into my high school door each day until I was 9 months pregnant, while also being a part time cashier at Burger King. I was doing it with the help of God. I was tired as hell but I had to keep it moving. I made it to all the senior events, I went the senior trips and I marched with my class. Surprisingly, I even made it to Prom, I made it home from prom at 12:00am (my best friend was with me all the way). anyhow, 6:00am that morning my water broke. 12:00 I had to have an emergency Cesarean than came baby!!!!!!! I was so happy my son changed my life completely my concerns of what others thought immediately left my mind, I became mommy really quick! so, now when I see others attempting to abort their babies, I will intercede. I have saved so many babies. I hope someone find this blog useful, anyhow God Bless and be a Blessing. (fyi I’m not promoting teen parents and unprotected  sex, I do understand that things happen, just know you have to handle your self accordingly)