Sometimes I feel so alone in this large world. At times I feel like picking up moving away and never returning. I desire to go far far far away and never look back.
Inside I feel slightly broken and highly vulnerable. I push people away because, I’m fearful of being hurt. Frankly, I have two family members who I really trust and I know they have my best interest at heart. I have one real friend who truly loves and accepts me. Everyone else has reason~being relationships with me. My mother is deceased and my father has his own family so, at the end of the day it’s just the kids and I.
When I cry theirs no one to wipe my tears. When I have a bad day theirs no one to listen to me. When I’m mentally stressed out and tired as a dog I still have to find strength within to keep pushing. When my kids are acting like wild ungodly creatures their is no one to help me. I have to do what I have to do even if I don’t feel like it. I’m not going to lie that crap hurts my soul but, I don’t have time to throw myself a pity party. (I’m a mother, a student, an employee, and an individual.)
It’s all good because, every day want be like today. Someday will be better than today.
If you feel like me….just keep pushing at some point change will prevail in your life.